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(no subject) [Jun. 25th, 2008|10:56 pm]
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(no subject) [Jun. 18th, 2008|05:37 pm]
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Just a little quirk.
Thoroughly annoyed, a bit disappointed, and less open than before.

All that aside, things are well.
Moved Casey's couch into Jared's today. I also nabbed myself an interview at Starbucks on Friday.

Dinner, kbai.
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(no subject) [Jun. 14th, 2008|10:01 pm]
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[tunes |Murder By Death - Until Moral Improves, The Beatings Will Continue]

I am not: a tentacle monster, sadly.

I love: ice cubes and my funny looking boy-girl hair.

I hate: hate.

I fear: being useless.

I hope: for peace.

I hear: Where It Takes Me by Black Light Burns.

I crave: food.

I regret: nothing.

I cry: a lot. :]

I care: a lot.

I always: pick at my toe nails when I'm no wearing shoes.

I believe: that the world is flat.

I feel alone: right now, but not infinitely.

I listen: when you speak, but only hear when you talk.

I sing: and it makes me feel good.

I dance: like a 'tard, everywhere, all the time.

I write: poorly.

I play: with my gross toe nails, because my shoes aren't on right now.

I miss: being driven.

I search: for my motivation.

I learn: something new every day.

I feel: timid.

I know: I should probably go to a doctor about my stomach and vaccinations, but I really don't like doctors.

I say: fuck a lot.

I succeed: in failing. :x

I dream: very vividly.

I wonder: how things will turn out for me.

I want: everything to turn out right.

I have: AIDs. Lots of it.

I give: kisses to my dog.

I fight: when I feel that my friends or I am threatened.

First best friend: Monique.

First date: I don't remember.

First real kiss: Truth or Dare.

First break-up: sdlfkjsdk?

First screen name: littlebluefrog?

First self purchased album: Avenged Sevenfold.

First funeral: Randy Carroll.

First pets: These two goldfish that ate one another.

First true love: Anthony.

First enemy: I couldn't tell you, because if I've ever had any real enemies, they've never been vocal about it.

First musician you remember hearing in your house: I have no idea.

Last cigarette: Egh.

Last car ride: Drove home from Port Jefferson.

Last kiss: When I left for work today.

Last good cry: I don't know. I've been getting these sporadic, stress-induced sobbing fits recently, none of which I would consider a good cry.

Last library book checked out: In The Miso Soup. I recommend it.

Last movie seen: Polyester. Best movie ever.

Last beverage drank: Water.

Last food consumed: Hash browns.

Last crush: I have a crush on Piro.

Last phone call: Last person I called was Piro, but I don't think I've actually talked on the phone with anyone since yesterday morning.

Last time showered: Yesterday?

Last shoes worn: Doc Martin slouch boots.

Last cd played: A really yellow one.

Last item bought: Food.

Last annoyance: My aching everything.

Last disappointment: Waking up and the party being gone. :[

Last time wanting to die: A few years ago. /wrist /wrist /wrist

Last shirt worn: Green, striped tank top.

Last website visited: Live..Journal?

Last word you said: Lyrics to something on the radio.

Last song you sang: Something good. I don't remember what it was.

What color socks are you wearing?: Not wearing socks.

What color of underwear are you wearing?: Not wearing underwear.

What's under your bed?: Clothes.

What time did you wake up today?: 4am, 930am, 430pm.

Where do you want to go?: Somewhere with little humidity.

What is your career going to be?: Something fun, I hope.

How many kids do you want?: If ever there is a child in my life, it'll only be a child. A child, being one.

What kind of car(s): Don't care, so long as it gets me where I need to go. Good on gas would be nice too though. :]

My name is: hi-i-don't-give-out-my-name-on-the-interwobble.
I may seem: a bit dull at the moment.
But I('m) really: obnoxiously vivid at times.
In the morning I: have breath.
If I could be doing anything right now I would be: eating something.
Money is: something I really wish I had more of.
One thing I wish I had is: see answer above.
One thing I have that I wish I didn't is: body ache.
All I need is: food. A lot of it. Right now.
If I had one wish it would be: A steak dinner.
Love is: something people should do more of.

If an angel flew into my window at night I would: strike up a conversation with it.

If a demon crashed into my window I would: tell it to fix my window.

If I could see one person right now it would be: I'm enjoying my alone time right now, actually.

Something I want but I don't really need is: the Macbook I'm getting for graduation. :]

Something I need but I don't really want is: vaccinations.

It makes me angry when: there's nothing to eat.
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(no subject) [Jun. 14th, 2008|08:35 pm]
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[tunes |Nirvana - In Bloom]

Alone time-ing, and enjoying it.

I should be at work right now, but the pain I'm feeling throughout my entire body, though focused most in my lower abdomen, could possibly be equivalent to taking a swift kick in the face. Kick women right in the face.

On the ride back from Port Jefferson, I feel I had an other-worldly experience. Physically bound to broken material, limp and throbbing in the driver's seat of a Pathfinder somewhere far away, I spiritually found solace in the euphoria my hardly working stereo gifted me. I was centered on the highway, drifting 80 with rain stippling my arms and face, every song I could've wanted to listen to playing my emotions like an old cello. In a time that spanned about a half-hour, all the raging hurt I felt was smothered entirely by a roaring engine and the voices of angst-feeding Gods. I could've died smug in those moments.

Rain's pouring outside my windows and I'm peaceful despite the ache.

My corset came in the mail yesterday, and it's bangin'.
The last day of high school came and went like any other day.
Jared and I are going shopping together, and I'm looking forward to it.
2g tapers, plox?

I'm going to go lay down like I should be.
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(no subject) [Jun. 12th, 2008|01:05 am]
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(no subject) [Jun. 9th, 2008|03:28 pm]
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[tunes |Hi, I still can't stop listening to The Faint.]

My phone is dying for all the right reasons.

So, I'm out a job because B&N likes to ream me in the ass every chance they get. They scheduled me this passed Saturday without saying anything (this isn't a matter of me not checking my schedule for changes, because I hadn't been in since Monday earlier that week) and called me in for 12-4 shift. Usually, I'd have no problem dropping what it is I was doing and getting to work as quickly as possible, but I was out at my mother's in Wading River and had to be ready to drive to Tiger Lily in Port Jefferson for my 6-11 shift (which my manager is well aware of). I pointlessly told them I wasn't scheduled for today, and was informed that I was being taken off the schedule for good. Thank you Barn's and Nobles Bay Shore, for all your coked up managers and soul-sucking irritation.

I'm applying to a couple Starbucks in Bayport/Patchogue, Hot Topic, and a few scattered nothings in the area. Hopefully I can find something within the next week, or I'm fucked. :]

In other news, Jared, Piro, and I went ape-shit cleaning Jared's apartment the other day. We spent most of the afternoon doing so, and aren't even close to half-way done. I got down and scrubbed the bathroom until I thought I was going to faint, and we must've taken at least six bags of garbage to the dumpster. It was a good start, but we still have a lot left to do before I move in.

If you didn't already know, it's gnarlier than Satan's taint outside.
Too hot for pants.

My septum is also healing very nicely. :]
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(no subject) [Jun. 4th, 2008|03:13 pm]
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I'm in love with Ian Tese.
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(no subject) [Jun. 3rd, 2008|09:28 pm]
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[tunes |Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Y-Control]


Bought for prom. :]
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(no subject) [Jun. 2nd, 2008|10:27 pm]
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My new infatuation makes it virtually impossible to pick my nose.
That's okay though, because it's something my tongue enjoys playing with. :]

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(no subject) [Jun. 1st, 2008|11:01 pm]
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(no subject) [Jun. 1st, 2008|06:07 pm]
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[tunes |The Faint]

Practice went well Friday. A few more and we'll have it down-pat for the open mic on Thursday. I was pretty nervous about singing at first. I was self-conscious about not being able to do the song justice, but I ended up not giving a shit due to the fun that was being had. I hope it sounds okay. I couldn't hear my own voice when we were practicing, so I'm relying on everyone else to say something if I suck.

Started working Medusa's Lounge Friday and Saturday nights 6-11+. It's pretty mellow so far, seeing how it's just opened, but I know it's going to get big once the summer kicks in. It's nice pulling in the extra $90+ a week. I'm going to need it.

My piercing supplies came in the mail the other day, so now I'm just waiting on my ring and retainer. Anxious and pretty excited. It's going to hurt a bit. :d

I'm up to a 4g. Waiting a few weeks before I look into a nice pair of 2g for myself.

Within the next couple of months, I'm getting a new retainer for my teeth. It's small, but the gap that exists between my two front teeth is annoying and constantly trapping bits of food. I'll be happy to be rid of it.

Only two weeks of classes left.

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(no subject) [May. 30th, 2008|12:23 am]
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I had a considerably good day.
Why am I such a miserable fuck?
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(no subject) [May. 26th, 2008|11:25 pm]
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So, I'm moving into Jared's come early July.
That's that.

Holding a thousand jobs..scary. o o;
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(no subject) [May. 25th, 2008|09:29 am]
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I had a dream we were able to be friends again.
You were happy for me.

It hurt to wake up from that.
The sheer realization that a dream is all it is.

It's impossible to have everything, I suppose.
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(no subject) [May. 25th, 2008|01:42 am]
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My last WIHS open mic is drawing near, and although I have little faith in this actually following through, I'd like to partake in the shenanigans.

I snagged Kevin's interest when describing my own interest in wanting to preform Worked Up So Sexual by The Faint. He agreed to play synth.

Bill's willing to play drums, whether traditional or via synth.

So that leaves guitar and bass?

Who knows. Who knows.
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(no subject) [May. 24th, 2008|12:04 am]
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[tunes |The Faint - Paranoiattack]

After months of saying I would do it, I finally put in the order for my piercing supplies. I ended up getting more than I originally planned on, so in about week I'll be receiving my starter set (includes needle holder, forceps, H20cean, two sterile needles, two sterile captive-bead rings, and two sterile alcohol swabs), a pack of five extra needles, septum forceps, seamless ring, and retainer. Mmmmmmmmmm, glee.

My mom came to see me at work today. I got so excited that I practically leaped the counter to hug her. We didn't talk too long because I was working and am driving out to see her tomorrow anyway, but it was a breath of fresh air. If seeing my mom wasn't enough, Delaney came in with her friends about 15 minutes after my mom had been there. She's getting so big, ghm. ; ;

On top of that, Moose was in the store when I took my lunch. We talked tattoos, piercings, and personal lives. It was pretty cool. We should see each other more before I leave for Boston. I should see more of everyone before I leave for Boston.

Oh, Boston.
Oh, summer.
Oh, vaccinations that I'm not looking forward to but have to schedule an appointment for or I may not even be able to go to college. :'c

I have no self-control.
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(no subject) [May. 23rd, 2008|03:34 pm]
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[tunes |The Faint - Worked Up So Sexual]

A few things.

Been thinking of a little ring for my septum. Ordering needles for my orbital anyway, so I'm buying forceps. I've never done my nose before, so any tips? Oboy, moar holes for my body.

Decided that I'm going to The Faint. All else?

Oh, and I quite possibly have the coolest friends anyone can ask for.

Jealous? I know.
I'm being obnoxious what else is knew? I know, and so much.

Work 4-11.
Leaving now.

I forgot to brush my teeth.
Now I'm leaving.
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(no subject) [May. 20th, 2008|09:59 pm]
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I can't even stomach how ignorant some people can be.
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(no subject) [May. 20th, 2008|10:44 am]
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I've never gotten sick from smoking hookah.
I was bed-ridden for the rest of the night.
Always wash your hookah thoroughly before and after use.
I felt like I was gagging on my own tongue.

I have so much work that still needs to be done.
Looking forward to 1:39pm.
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(no subject) [May. 19th, 2008|10:37 am]
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I finished Death Note last night.
It was so good. :x

My head feels so empty aside from the few floating, recreational thoughts bobbing around inside. I'm having a lot of trouble focusing on the things I need to get done. I'm fully aware of how easily distracted I've been, and I can recognize when it happens, but I haven't really cared. Common sense tells me that isn't good, but I'm too lazy to do anything about it. All I want to do is smile, sleep, and be warm.

Let's go to Montauk soon, okay?

I have to save up money for a thousand different things.
I need to find another job for the summer.

My head hurts and it's causing my eyes to water.
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(no subject) [May. 18th, 2008|09:28 pm]
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[tunes |Blue October - 18th Floor Balcony]

I close my eyes and I smile
Knowing that everything is alright
To the core
So close that door
Is this happening?

My breath is on your hair
I'm unaware
That you opened the blinds and let the city in
God, you held my hand
And we stand
Just taking in everything.

And I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony.
We're both flying away.

So we talked about mom's and dad's
About family pasts
Just getting to know where we came from
Our hearts were on display
For all to see
I can't believe this is happening to me

And I raised my hand as if to show you that I was yours
That I was so yours for the taking
I'm so yours for the taking
That's when I felt the wind pick up
I grabbed the rail while choking up
These words to say and then you kissed me...

I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony...
We're both flying away.

And I'll try to sleep
To keep you in my dreams
'til I can bring you home with me
I'll try to sleep
And when I do I'll keep you in my... dreams

I knew it from the start
So my arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
And we're trying so hard not to fall asleep
So here we are
On this 18th floor balcony, yeah

I knew it from the start
My arms are open wide
Your head is on my stomach
No, we're not going to sleep

Here we are
On this 18th floor balcony... we're both..
Flying away
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(no subject) [May. 13th, 2008|01:11 pm]
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Who's going so far:

Jared +2 others

If you haven't already, order tickets for the June 27th MSI show at Terminal 5.
It'll be fantastic. :]
June 27th is also Piro's birthday, so fun shenanigans will ensue.

Let me know if/when you get your tickets, but hurry, because they're going quick.

June 26-28th is going to to be sick, bitches. Maaaaaaaaaad sick.

Largo + Casey are going too.

EDIT:: monique too.
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(no subject) [May. 9th, 2008|02:46 pm]
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(no subject) [May. 8th, 2008|02:11 pm]
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So, MSI decided to play NYC June 27th at Terminal 5.
I just creamed my pants.
They're playing with The Birthday Massacre.
Double creamed.

I need to have a long, serious talk with Jared later.
Now, I have to go pick up my piece from Huntington.

Good day, good day.
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(no subject) [May. 7th, 2008|10:37 am]
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I worked on the painting all night.
I took a 30 minute nap before coming to school.
I'm still not entirely happy with it, but I have a few more hours to make it work.
I'm having an allergic reaction to the crackle paint fumes, and now my eyes, nose, and throat are all itchy and pained.
Too much suffering is going into this painting and I really hope it's worth it.

At least I have off today.
That, and I'm seeing some pretty cool people after the whole painting issue is dealt with.
THAT, and someone else is cooking my dinner tonight. :D

Food and sleep. ; ;
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(no subject) [May. 5th, 2008|12:29 pm]
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Whoo for filling my tank on 20 dollars.
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(no subject) [May. 1st, 2008|09:36 pm]
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[tunes |Mindless Self Indulgence - Prescription]

I love my dog so much.
It's going to kill me when I go away. :<

Looking forward to:

. Getting my corset
. Prom
. Graduation
. Piro's birthday
. Going to Montauk Point
. Getting nice plugs when my gauges are large enough
. Doing my orbital
. Actually going to the beach this summer
. Spending a great deal of time with all of my friends :]
. Hanging out on Largo's boat
. Having money
. Clubbing
. Making the bubble-head nurse costume
. Eventually getting my sleeve done :Q
. Getting my mother's painting done
. taking a shower. :\

The new MSI album is really good.

"A show of envy is an insult to oneself."
- Yevgeny Alexandrovich Yevtushenko

EDIT: I just had an awesome conversation with Dan Walsh about happiness and the meaning of life. It was very nice.
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(no subject) [Apr. 30th, 2008|12:47 am]
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[tunes |Murder by Death - Sometimes the Line Walks You]

I'd like to live in a funky little apartment, right in the heart of Boston.
I'm going to be so tired tomorrow morning.
Tickets for this show are so much money.
"The height of cleverness is to be able to conceal it." -Francois, Duc De La Rochefoucauld
I'm so gangster, I can't stand it.
Lol 10g.
Tomorrow is movies and painting.
I should start reading again.
"Woman keep a special corner of their hearts for sins they have never committed." -Cornella Otis Skinner
My throat feels raw.
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(no subject) [Apr. 27th, 2008|09:53 pm]
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So, my phone is gone.
I have a new one, but I don't have anyone's number.

Comment with #'s pl0x. :
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(no subject) [Apr. 27th, 2008|02:56 pm]
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I popped in my 12g yesterday, and now my ears are itchy.
Deck is lending me 10g so that I won't have to run out and buy some. <3
Golly, I'm hungry.
I think I'll make a new livejournal account.
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